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It’s times like these where you look back from what has all happened over the last few years, and you breathe a sigh of like what the fuckety fuck was all that. It’s a time to be grateful and a time to just live in the moment. Days like these are what make the days […]

I made a bit of a breakthrough this week when I figured out why I get so anxious when I go to the office. I think it is because I am carpooling and I feel if I get sick (like pain and diarrhea from ischemic colitis) or mentally have uncontrollable thoughts, that I won’t be

It’s difficult to be at events and with people who haven’t seen you for a long time, like before the January breakdown, who ask you how you are doing.  You say, “oh good”, not knowing how much they know about it, and it feels like they want more from you, more than just I’m good. 

Do all marriages have two people who like the exact same things, who spend money the same way, and who want to spend money on things the same way? I’m guessing not or I am truly jealous of those that do. Some people are spenders, some people are savers. Some people like fancy things, some

Ahhhh holidays and if you’re a mom and you have either went camping, to an air bnb, hotel, cabin or pretty much just about anywhere with your kids, all you have done is changed location. Pessimistic as that may sound, it is the same crying that I hear from a child having a tantrum at

It’s been kinda a rough week. I’ve been extra hard on myself lately. I keep questioning if I made the right decision by releasing my first book to the public. This I imagine is how it feels to be “coming out of the closet”. There are a few things that I just stew constantly about.

I think it’s time for a reflection on some of the things that I have been thinking about over the last week.  When I went to the emergency room in January 2024 it was January 11th, when I started TMS therapy and upped my medication it was January 17th.  I was asked every morning if

I have paid more attention to my thoughts lately and I realize that it seems for every thought I have, I have a vivid video of it in my mind.  In good ways and in bad ways it is just always there, I’ll give some examples.    I look up at the sky as I

I had a very busy week with big events and I’m exhausted.  I think for the most part I’m doing pretty well but I definitely have my moments.  When I get tired I zone out a bit and then my terrible thoughts will start popping in.  For the most part I can ignore them, but