The Thoughts I See
& The Thoughts I Still See

Through vivid and often harrowing descriptions, Michelle recounts her journey with major depression, self-loathing, violent visions while receiving Transcranial magnetic stimulation (TMS).

In a transparent and honest journey, author and mental health advocate Michelle J.E. Temple releases her memoir, “The Thoughts I See.” This compelling two part memoir offers readers a deeply personal look into her lifelong battle with mental health, the complexity of her family life, and her ongoing pursuit of healing from Harm OCD.

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Experience the courage and raw honesty of unrelenting medical and mental health battles while unveiling the poignant and unfiltered story of survival in Michelle Temple’s two-book memoir

The Thoughts I See & The Thoughts I Still See.

The Thoughts I See

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The Thoughts I Still See

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About the author

Michelle J.E. Temple has a diverse professional background, with experience spanning multiple industries. Most recently, she serves as the Corporate Accounting Manager for a Credit Union. Prior to that, she held the position of Chief Operations Officer at  a public accounting firm. Throughout her career, Michelle has authored numerous presentations, analyses, and reports. One of her most notable achievements includes writing an Internal Audit Manual for the United Nations Transitional Administration in East Timor during her tenure at Ernst & Young in Australia.

She has been married to her husband, Kevin, for thirty-one years, and together they have three children: Kierra, Ava, and Brant. This is her first book.

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Book Reviews

It was a good book and shows that not everything is as it seems in people’s lives. Michelle lets the reader into her personal thoughts and feelings and takes the reader into some intimate moments with herself and her family. The book is a snapshot of the struggles that she and her family were having due to mental illness and how they ended up working together to address the issue. I would recommend this book to others. 

Shirley K.

A raw, personal look into Michelle’s mental health journey.

Tasha S.

I highly recommend this book to anyone who has ever suffered mental health issues or is close to someone who is suffering. The author is very courageous to recount such raw and personal stories about her mental and physical health struggles. I truly believe this memoir will encourage other people who are suffering in silence to begin advocating for themselves.

Mike S.

Honest and impactful words that need to be heard.
Thank you for sharing your journey so vulnerably. The honest, frightening and sometimes humorous discussion of mental health issues, navigating the health care system, ups and downs of parenting & being a busy working mom are very relatable. This book helped me reflect on our societies, and my own, stigmas of mental health. Michelles words remind me how important it is to keep an open dialogue about mental health issues to break those barriers. These words of resilience are very powerful and I hope the messages reach those who need to hear it.

Shelly

I started reading this book without knowing what to expect. Michelle’s memoir dares to go to a place many people want to hide from. Her thoughts, feelings and description of what happened appear to be honest, brave and transparent. This book takes the reader on a journey that to some degree everyone can identify with. Overall this is a good read that shows her resilience an strength. 

Teresa K.

I could not put your book down.  As someone who has struggled with mental health her whole life I could relate to so much of your writing.  I also hid my struggles for many years and I remember when I finally started opening up about them so many people said to me ‘but you always seem so happy’… that just goes to show that we never know what someone is going through or who has a smile on their face but is actually dying on the inside.  I also completed 40 TMS treatments but still continue the rollercoaster of depression and anxiety.  It is hard to not feel envious of those who don’t have these same struggles as us and don’t have to fight to feel joy every day.  I am so proud of you for taking the plunge and not only writing down your thoughts, but making the choice to share your book with the world in hopes of helping others.  Your book truly does inspire me.  My message to others is to always be kind…. And know that you’re never alone.

Carissa A.

I read it until way later than I should have because I wanted to finish it. May have dropped my phone on my face once or twice. It was interesting in part because I know you, but also because a lot of what you were talking about are things I am unfamiliar with and found very informative and heartbreaking.

You could see your struggle, your joy, your dedication to your family and the frustration with the medical system and your frustration when you couldn’t be who you wanted to be. I would recommend this book.

I am familiar with the way you come across – fun, dedicated, love your family, interesting to talk to. But to know that all of that exists with this incredible struggle. I found the way that you described your suicidal ideations totally changed my thoughts on that. You mentioned that we often think people who choose suicide are selfish and I definitely have thought that. To hear you explain how you felt and how uncontrollable it was made me look at it differently. It very much reinforced that you don’t know what people are going through and to be kind. And that goes for you and your family. You don’t know what the family of someone dealing with mental health struggles are going through.

Michelle W.

It was a very fascinating deep dive into how your brain can really work against you and in some cases override who you actually are. I have also dealt with suicidal ideation, and I felt so seen and validated. It’s a hard thing to explain to people who have never experienced it. The fear of being seen as a bad parent/spouse/employee etc. because of a health issue was also very relatable and validating. I think personal stories are always effective at removing stigma, and can help people applying the stigma to themselves realize they are not alone. I love that you were able to answer the question of who you are at the end to include all aspects of you.

Cara H.

Wow, Michelle.

I was crying real tears by the second treatment chapter and again at page 36.

Several other spots had me reading through the tears in my eyes.

A page-turner?  YES!  I only paused at one spot to get into my comfy pajamas and make myself a cup of tea.  I finished the read in one sitting.

I could definitely feel your frustration with our wonderful medical system, as well as the love you have for your family.  Not to mention confusion, pain, uncertainty.

 So many people struggle with so much and never say anything to anyone.  Truly, the more stories like this that can be shared, the more it may encourage others to speak up or to seek help.  So yes, I do think it will help.  You just never know where the tipping point will be.

Judi W.

I finished reading your book by Saturday morning. I could not put it down and for the record I am not a reader, so I think you did a fantastic job.

I was very captivated it and found it so interesting, like I said I couldn’t put it down. It was so raw and real and brought so much awareness to me and I could relate to other circumstances in life that brought so much clarity to me.

I could absolutely feel what you were writing. I could feel the suffering that you have gone through, the need to get help and bring awareness and how you want to protect your family so you’d rather take the pain on yourself than have them suffer.

I would absolutely recommend it to read. I know you said this was private so I never told anyone, but I have some close friends from BC that I grew up with and we talk lots and I am sure they would love to read it. I do think it will help with the mental health stigma. 

Leslianne H.

I definitely found it easy to read and tough to put down. Very captivating!!

I could definitely feel your feeling and at time felt myself feeling anxious with you. Had alot of emotions while reading it and definitely had many tears as well. Definately would be a highly recommended book. 

 

It definitely opened my eyes up to the mental health challenges and made me look at it through a different lense. The way you described the suicidal thoughts and how you really had no control at that moment let me somewhat understand how people can take their own life… as someone who has thankfully never gone through that, it is hard to understand. I always understood it was an illness that those of us that don’t have to deal with will never fully understand, but reading your book sure shed some light on what you have gone through and what you do have to deal with. I still have soooo much to learn! 

Jackie G.

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